DREAMS OF A LOST MOONCHILD

Some people get their best ideas in the shower, or on long walks. I get mine when I am trying to sleep. So in regards to Sons of Caina, it’s no secret I hit a fucking brick wall, because I simply couldn’t find a way to tie shit together, and the plot made no sense, not even after me re-editing (perhaps especially after I re-edited), because I couldn’t figure out the why.

I mean the original plot couldn’t carry an expansion. that simple. And without that expansion, well I mean the story sorta works, I know it does! Because I had test readers, and I might keep it as an alternative version. But it needed more flesh, and the ‘why’ was just too flimsy. Even if I played with planted memories and lapses of reality due to the influence of the deep ones, then it still made no fucking sense… none.

Okay so. This story started out as a crazy fucking cannibal story, and then I incorporated something vague about Enochian star charts and a dark side version of Eastern Orthodox Catholicism. And that is the version the test readers got. But I still felt like it ended kinda weak, I always hated the ending.

And why? well because of the dogs on the moor. See they feel like they are important, but then they are not. And just who the fuck was the guy claiming to the the caretaker’s son?

Yeah it annoyed me, and I need my stories to make sense – If I am to put my goddamn name on them, and also demand money for it. (not that I am making any money hahaha I sold 1 copy of Heart Shaped tattoos, which I happen to know was bought by my own daughter, because she wanted the hardback.)

Anyways, it doesn’t matter. what matters is that I am asking money for it at all. And so it has to be worth it. that simple!

So last night I was laying there listening to some of what I wrote, cause that is what I do. I cannot stress how well that works for me, to listen to what I wrote.

But the entire plot just lends itself to werewolves, not Eldritch horrors. Goddammit! I mean it would make a hell of a lot more sense if that was the secret to Whately Hall, that they were a werewolf coven. And that would even make sense with the odd people who invited themselves (as per my edit that no one read).

But I don’t want to write motherfucking werewolves! perhaps I am broken by the fucking recommended shit on Wattpad, but I’d hate for people to pick it up because of that.

So if I am to write werewolves, I better make them fucking scary like in Dog Soldiers. Because no way am I going to write sexualized beast-hybrids.. no way!!

BUT it might mean I have to change the title too, because I’m not sure it would make sense – or well perhaps there’s something else that makes more sense than Caina.