So first off, I want to say the change of plans is in regards to which novel I am going to edit for publishing. I was working on Sons of Caina, but I think that need a little more time in the oven. And so really the Episode Blackthorn is much easier to edit, and it does need some major stuff changed, like it changes main character halfway which is weird. So I need to take out the start and write a new one. Also I need to take out some other shit and elaborate on other stuff. But apart from that, it’s much easier than writing something Lovecraft, as I think I mentioned before in this post.
So that is my plan, so I could perhaps publish this in 25, that would be cool.
And playing the blame game, well it was just because I realised that I spend way more time whining in this blog, about how frustrated I am with the online community, how I feel like I am flailing in the dark, and blaming myself for basically cutting off all friendships I once had for one or other reason.
I bitch about how I always have to keep things apart, like I made a post on my authors blog about how little sense the Amazon system makes to me.
I posted this on twitter, facebook and tumblr… and not a single fucking soul reacted, i dont’ think anyone read it. And I think that is my major gripe. That no one fucking reads what I write. It makes me frustrated every single time, and I honestly don’t know if it’s because I am boring, irrelevant, or I bitch too much. Probably a combo of all those.
So I need to get my shit together and stop bitching about how the world stifles my creativity and get to writing. That’s just easier when it comes to shit like fanfiction, or rando blog posts, than when it comes to something you published. I mean i am dead proud of having published anything again, but i can’t shop it around, because of the ai cover, which pisses me off to no fucking end. That whole shit show is just – making me very, very angry to be honest.
I said it before, I’ll say it again. It makes me super fucking irate, that assholes can sit there and claim that everything I wrote is null and void, because I have an ai cover. It’s like i have to start out with apologizing and explaining. When the truth is that cover artists are expensive, and not all artists are good. I don’t want any ugly cover, and also i can’t afford to pay what it cost to get what I want.
Besides that I like having complete control over my stuff, I like that I made it myself, even if some would claim I didn’t.
Perhaps one day the winds will change, but I know one thing. I am done apologizing for it. For once I will say, that it’s the people who need to educate themselves! I mean for authors with a publisher who has money, yeah I think it’s lame to make AI covers, absolutely. But for small independent, self publishers – no. And people need to understand there is a difference. And just because you aren’t like super anti ai, doesn’t make you a scamming ai-bro.
Fuck.
How fucking dare they assume that what I spent the better side of 7 years writing, is ai – just because the cover is. Fucking assholes, and I hate them all.
DREAMS OF A LOST MOONCHILD 
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