DREAMS OF A LOST MOONCHILD

Nah not really, but I just wanted to swing by real quick, to say that I initially wanted to update my blog on my AI art insta, just as I used to do on Twitter, and then regretted that decision.

I mean it’s not like I don’t know I come with a whole fucking truckload of stuff that someone might find interesting. The thing is just that I am more and more convinced that this ‘somebody’ is in my head. And honestly all I am doing is cluttering someone’s feed.

I used to do YT in batches, so it could upload daily. I haven’t done that either for a long time, because I know I am invading someone’s feed – and I do actually find some sort of joy in knowing there are people who follow those accounts, even if there is no engagement, and everything i do is somehow lost in translation.

The AI art people don’t care about my writing, and the writing people don’t care for AI art, the YT people don’t care for anything of the above. So where does one go? Nowhere, that is where. So I am going to stick to my bubble, where I am free to enjoy all of those things and doesn’t have to feel like I am alienating anyone, because the brutal truth is there is only myself left to alienate.

I realise it sounds bitter, it is actually not. it’s in a weird way super liberating, and as I said over and over. I do what I do, because I want to do it, nothing can change that. And perhaps someday someone will stumble across my shit and wonder where I have been all their life… Stranger things have happened.

And honestly I know I am repeating myself, but I don’t think the AI insta crowd is used to me when I get too excited for my own good. I simply have to learn I cannot fucking combine the things that I want to combine – either I am stark raving mad, ahead of my time, or simply haven’t found the other weirdos that likes the same stuff as me. But as it stands, it is simply not possible for me to create that space besides here on my blog… so dear Insta followers, I’m sorry, I just get a little too efficient sometimes.

• sorry but I felt like I had to explain why I pulled those posts from my AI insta, and this entry will be linked with some unrelated artwork.