DREAMS OF A LOST MOONCHILD

Alright so my purge is done, it was actually very therapeutic. Like connecting with what it was I wanted once. And what I had become – There heaps of entires I chose not to reactivate, either because they were super pointless, or because the links were dead – or because they were nothing but my anger and frustration.

What happened was ai art.

What I see is a tool to help me make visual storyboards, banner graphics and the like, and it makes me angry that I can’t do that, and share what I made, or discovered as a great tool for storytelling – without a fucking tsunami of shit, or complete silence. None of those reactions are even close to what I want.

I will never accept or understand it, but truth is that you feel like you have a filthy secret, and that is what pisses me off. But I also have to admit that I simplely can’t win – and that is why I removed all those posts, not because I am afraid ppl see them, but because they remind me of how angry it makes me.

• So I deleted every pinterest board that had any of my ai art in it.
• I am going to delete my resource blogspots with ai art.
• I am probably also going to delete my Redbubble.
• I will delete the ai graphics available for download on my patreon

Does this mean I will stop making ai art? no.

But I am returning to basics, to when I started doing it, and it was about me making visual storytelling, story banners – and to add something to my obvious fondness of making banners and graphics. So it means that you will not see blogposts about it, you won’t see links to any of it – and that is just how it has to be for my sanity.

And I took the decision that I might erase all ai works for download, but I am going to make my banners and other blog graphics, and honestly if the argument is that I am a part of the problem when I make my own graphics, just because I help train the actual ai – then I suggest you find another blog to look at.

I feel forced to do this – and that is what angers me.

But It also liberates space for me to return to blogging about documentaries and newsarticles and whatever catches my eye. And it allows me to fill my space with what I want to fill it with.

And the entry banners, well they make me happy – I love making them, just like I make youtube banners for those games who have none. But as I stated in my purge entry – no one cares, and no one reads this anyway, but just in case… now you know.

Love it or hate it, I don’t care. What I care about is that I can use the tools at my disposal to create. And that is what I am going to do.